Never more?

Can I really never drink a glass of wine again? That seems impossible!

Once you have stopped drinking, this scaring thought can come up to your mind.

NEVER. MORE.

Those are big words. They can be so oppressive that you question your choice to get and stay dry. What I've learned at AA is to think small. 'Never again' is too big to comprehend. Moreover, it is incalculable.

That is why I say to myself at the beginning of every new day: today I will not drink and tomorrow I will see again. Especially when I had just stopped drinking, it helped me a lot to live by the day. 'Not today.'

Now that I'm a bit further in the process, addiction no longer plays the leading role in my life. I am much less concerned with it than in the beginning. Still, I have to make a conscious choice over and over again: I don't drink. Especially in difficult moments.

Never again? Live by the day. This is also what Jesus taught us when He spoke about anxiety: “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Then do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care of itself; every day has enough of its own evil. ' Matthew 6:33, 34

My first task is to seek Him and His will. Then I don't have to worry, because I know He's going to give me what I need. Also in my recovery.

Consider how The Message, a Bible translation by Eugene Peterson, says it:

"Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes."

Not today. Blessed choice.